Trapped

I feel trapped its more powerful than I imagined;
It goes beyond my control I’m there for you even when
I rather be some where else, where seeing your face does not bring so much pain
And it forces me to hide behind a mask and smile, and laugh
As if everything was okay as if you did not make me go through all that hurt and woe;
I should be enraged, filled with wrath, for allowing you to waste my time and letting you block me from my path
I was fine before you came around and turned my world upside down
I was a loner; independent didn’t need anyone by my side
Always going about my way never having trouble with what to say,
But all that changed the minute you came my way
Because of you I finally grew speechless never able to find words to say
My independence, you stole now I fear always to be alone, without you;
And I wonder will it always be this way, me trapped, hopeless and powerless in an ongoing cycle of pain and fear, love and hate; the worse part is that you don’t realize that this is all you cause and for now I sit on the side lines waiting hoping that one day you may.