They say events in our lives shape us to be who we are but what if so many events in your life have ocurred that lead you with no direction who are we then? 
I don't know what is happening nor do I know why but I know I have to find myself whether it's a reunion or a first time union I do not know that either all I wanna do is look in the mirror and know who is looking back

The obstacles might be hard and the mountain might be steeper than you thought; you think you might have just lost it all, your hopes, your dreams, and your future; You must remember that your legs are still strong , your heart still beats, and you mind sill thinks, so lift those legs up and move them forward however hard it might be to make that first step does not matter because you can and you will; your heart beats to the same rhythm that held that desire and passion and no matter what you do, you will never loose that rush that you get of blood rushing through your veins filled with passion and desire that is enough to keep and feed your determination; your mind still thinks those wonderful thoughts filled with theories and idea that blows anyone mind whom you approach rich with wisdom and knowledge that no matter if your among millions you will shine with hardly any effort; you are more than just one in a million; you are the blue print of beauty, wisdom, strength, perseverance, love, kindness and passion there in no other in the history of humanity like you.

Where were You?

I looked at you helplessly ……you didn’t come
I stretched out my hands……..you didn’t come
I grabbed your arms…..you didn’t even turn around
I whispered to your ear…..you didn’t even blink
I let a tear fall on your head….you didn’t even feel
I yelled for help……you didn’t come
I screamed your name….you didn’t come

I needed you and you weren’t there
I cried in pain and you weren’t there
I trembled in fear and you weren’t there
I suffocated grasping for air and you weren’t there
I crawled in my own pool of blood to you and you weren’t there
As I closed my eyes and took my final breath I see you watch

mother

She thrives every day of her life
She nourishes her children with all she has, the milk on her breast
But her children are never satisfied
She loves them and tries her best to provide
And in exchange they beat her senseless
And hardly ever apologize
But she withstands them with her unconditional love
And in exchange her heart is torn apart as she watches her children
dying
She feels helpless, after all that's the only way they communicate and
their mother never respect
Her cries are getting louder but their ignorance is stronger
Her breaths are shorter but their greed is stronger
Her heart beat is slower but their ambition is stronger
Dead she lies
"mother Earth!”, They cry
But it's too late to apologize

complications

why is it that you can't wake up and get over something? why is it the thing we remember the most is pain? we replay it over and over in our minds. we try to deny the fact that something is wrong and go about our days, swearing that what happened in the past is the past. well it is not and it sucks. the past is not simply the past. if you've been told that your past does not matter, i have bad news for you it does! in fact a big part of your past has a lot to do with were you are today. whether we like it or not our past will remain ours.

Lost and alone he stands
No more hands reaching out
He thought he had it all figured out
Yet he looks in the mirror filled with doubt
No longer knowing who the person back is all about

They tried to reach their arms
But they can’t be around him anymore it does them more harm
The friend they tried to save was lost with all the smoke he inhaled
If you’re not honest with yourself you’ll fail
And his story will be your tale

I’ve been through it all, the heart breaks and tears
Millions of overwhelming obstacles each year
And yet I stand after my falls
Filled with bruises of hardships to recall
Life is hard there is no doubt about it
They key is knowing to take every hit
And learning from your falls and getting up bit by bit