I look at you everyday
Wishing I could confess
Just hoping that one day
My vision of love would be professed

You look into my eyes
And I try the truth to hide
Then you smile
You give me that smile that melts my heart
As if you know the truth that lies in my
Mind and eagerly awaits to reveal
Itself to you

As we exchange words
The little things gain value
Then the truth, for its opportunity awaits

And then you torture me
You tease me with your
Touch never a full embrace but just enough to show
You care

And then the truth makes his way
And reveals itself
All doubts released
Only for you to pain inflict

The dreams shattered
Seems that I to you never really mattered

I was deceived
Deceived by your touch, by your smile, by your eyes
Fooled by your kindness and compassion
Enchanted by your words
But even worst cursed with the enslavement that
Yearns for your desire

don't

Don’t lie to me
Don’t give me those foolish excuses
If you want to tell me something; just do it
You convert my emotion into a deadly chemical that just fuses
Don’t give me hope that there is a chance so when I give you an opportunity you just refuse it

I love him but I don’t know if am in love with him. I think about him all the time but the same thing happened with others. What is so different about him? He is a careless I mean a robot shows more emotion than him he doesn’t give a shit about anything but he is the only shit I think I have about him. It isn’t fair you know torturing me while he could careless I hate him. It is like something you know is bad for you but it taste so damn sweet you can’t help it but keep taking it even when you know the consequence might be deadly.

change of heart

Why should I keep trying when u don’t want me there when u don’t even care I’m persistent but only if your feelings remain consistent I can’t be with some who doesn’t acknowledge my existence

this isn't home

This isn’t a home
This is just a place in which
Nothing but strangers live here and
Barely interact
This isn’t a home
This is a place were words of hate
And judgment are spoken
This isn’t a home this is a place
In which no one wants to be
But feel oblige to be in
Because of their “roles”
Mom must take care of the kids,
But she doesn’t love them
Dad must bring home money,
But always unwillingly
Child must be joyful simply because
She is forced to be
Trapped in a screenplay
Constantly acting like something I’m not
Never allowed to step out of this role
This isn’t a home!

lady

Sit up; walk straight; speak properly; close your legs, you are not a boy; wash the dishes, they will not wash themselves; cook for the family, I know that might be too much to ask of you since you do not care about the rest of us; this is how to dress when you go to school; this is how you dress to go to church; this is how you dress to attend events; you are not a whore so do not dress like one; I know that might be too much to ask of you since you do not care about how that might makes us look; do your hair, a lady always looks good at all times, this is how you speak to your teacher; this is how you speak to your preacher; this is how you speak to me; I know that might be too much to ask of you since do not recognize the respect I deserve; sweep & mop the floors; clean the bathrooms; take care of your brother, I know that might be too much to ask of you since do not care of anyone else but yourself; this is how you work hard so that you may never forget where you come from; this is how talk to boys; don’t throw yourselves at them; you are not a slut, you know; clean your room; organize yourself; focus on your studies because that will take you far; a lady is always be prepared; this is how you gain respect; this is how you demand it; this is how you climb rocky hills; this is how you get up when you fall; this is how you never look back; this is how you let go; wipe your tears and hide behind a mask so that others won’t see; try not to be weak, I know that might be too much to ask of you since all you do is cry; this is how you swim so that you might not drown; hold your tongue so that you might not say anything to get you into trouble; I know that might be too much to ask of you since you find it hard to think before you speak; this is how you hurt; this is how you forgive when you’re the one being hurt; this is how you leave before you are left; this is how you suffer; I know that won’t be hard for you because in your eyes you are always the victim; this is how you succeed ; keep your house clean; you are a lady; keep your body clean; you are a lady; this is how you throw a rock that is in your way; throw it far, not so far that it might hit someone but just far enough so that you might not encounter it again; this is how you fit through narrow a road; what if the road is too small and am too big?; you mean to tell me that after all you won’t be smart enough to find another way?

.......restrained

I feel like a fool
I can’t even look at you
Because I know that my eyes
Can’t hide and you can see pass
All the lies
Can’t help but feel blue
When you’re around I just don’t know what to do
I feel like all my energy is drained
My heart is filled with pain
You were the only one who could make me sane
And this shameful feeling is killing me making me insane
I wish it would go away so I no longer felt restrained